I have a high level of enthusiasm for my too-androgynously-shaped body to become more curvy, i.e. more feminine. But, I’m not willing to run a high risk of dying to achieve that. Some t-girls are.
Some time ago, I was chatting with a gentleman who’d had a t-girl as his girlfriend. He mentioned that she’s dead now, in an “of course” manner. Wait, what? Yes, he explained, she took hormones, had a heart attack and died. It happens. The way he said it, I gathered it happens often in t-girl circles. Wow.
More recently, another conversation, another gentleman, and this one used to be married to a young-ish t-girl, sadly now also dead. Wow.
I’m all for looking more feminine but being cautious is the better way. I did a lot of reading before I went on hormone replacement therapy (HRT). I read that estrogen increases the risk of dying from a heart attack or stroke due to a blood clot forming, often in the legs, and then traveling to a fatal place. The higher an individual’s blood cholesterol, the higher the risk of this sort of thing happening.
Imagine how impressed I was when the very professional folks at Planned Parenthood, whom I’d chosen to manage my HRT journey, first sent me to a lab to get my blood drawn and analyzed. I was even more impressed when the lady in charge told me sympathetically but firmly that my blood cholesterol readings weren’t horrible but also not great, and too high for estrogen to be a safe choice for me. However, a testosterone blocker, such as spironolactone, was viable, and that would already have some benefit. I’d start at a low dosage.
This was done. At least, I’d started. That meant a lot to me.
[Note: A wise, caring and helpful gentleman has commented on this post, and his input plus some additional reading I’d done have helped me understand that it’s an oversimplification for me to refer to spiro as a testosterone blocker. The issue is more complex in many ways. Please see the comments below for details.]
What meant more yet was how prudently my health was being managed.
Since then, I’ve been eating more and more healthily, including and especially foods that help with my blood cholesterol level. I recently had my blood pressure measured, and it’s 120 over 70, which is very good. In the long run, blood pressure readings tell much of the story. It’s not yet time to go for a second blood test, but I’m hopeful the blood cholesterol reading will be much better. And, if they’re not, then I’ll eat more healthily yet until things do improve.
Meanwhile, I do what I can with what I have. This picture shows what my butt looks like without HRT. Yes, it could be a lot more curvy and feminine, but I can’t will it so. The best I can do is to pursue a diligent routine of butt exercises.
I also eat enough protein with the right mix of essential amino acids to make sure I have the dietary building blocks for becoming more muscular you-know-where, as a result of all this exercising. To quote SFGate:
You need essential amino acids in your daily diet because your body cannot make them. If you do not get essential amino acids in your diet, proteins break down, resulting in muscle loss and problems with repair. Amino acids, which are building blocks of proteins, can be essential, non-essential or conditional. Non-essential and conditional amino acids are made in your system, so you do not need to worry about consuming them each day. Knowing which foods provide all or some of the essential amino acids helps you make sure you body gets adequate amounts.
And, one day, when I finally do have a curvy-enough butt, I plan to look good on the beach, not in the morgue.