Today, I was sitting in a waiting room along with a maybe-6-year-old little blonde girl and her mom. Both seemed to be genetically integrated (not transgender). I pondered how someone the size and shape of the tiny person grows to become shaped like an adult female, and how the shaping process is driven by hormones to such a huge extent.
Puberty is the key time-frame. Whatever the dominant hormone is at puberty will affect the shape-changing process. And, during puberty, I had 100% the wrong hormone. I often wonder what I’d have looked like if I’d had female hormones, not male hormones, during puberty.
A clone of me would have the same brain structure as I have, so she would also be a transgender girl. I’ve fantasized about cloning myself and helping the clone live a better life than I did, by enabling her to have female hormones to shape her during puberty.
Fantasies aside, I’ve been downplaying the value of hormones. I’ve been trying to look as feminine as I can without them. I’ve paid attention to skin care, make-up, hair, nails, exercise, eating right, and so much more. As a result, I have achieved a level of success of which I am proud, especially given what I started with.
The pictures on today’s post were all taken today, and they show what I’ve managed to accomplish so far. I’m happy … but I still look far too masculine, by my own standards anyway.
With the right hormones, just by living a reasonably healthy life during puberty, so many things about me would have been shaped as I’d prefer them to be. For example, one transgender girl (Jenna Talackova) had female hormones early enough, and she became Miss Canada. To quote from a CNN article: “Talackova … began hormone therapy as a teenager …”
If you think I’m hot, then why thank you, but there’s little risk of me being able to enter the Miss Universe contest.
There’s not much I can do about that, either. Time doesn’t run backwards. By now, I’m many years beyond puberty. By now, feminizing hormones will have, at best, a greatly reduced effect on me. And yet, there will be SOME effect. And (drumroll, please) … starting today, I’m on the way to experiencing this effect.
I just started feminizing hormone treatments about an hour ago, by taking my first Spironolactone pill. The stuff is delightfully affordable, at about $24 per month. Yay for Walgreens!
A side effect of this chemical is that it changes the way my body deals with potassium. So, to keep my blood chemistry healthy, I need to eat less of the foods that are rich in potassium.
- Winter squash, cubed, 1 cup, cooked: 896 mg
- Sweet potato, medium, baked with skin: 694 mg
- Potato, medium, baked with skin: 610 mg
- White beans, canned, drained, half cup: 595 mg
- Yogurt, fat-free, 1 cup: 579 mg
- Halibut, 3 ounces, cooked: 490 mg
- 100% orange juice, 8 ounces: 496 mg
- Broccoli, 1 cup, cooked: 457 mg
- Cantaloupe, cubed, 1 cup: 431 mg
- Banana, 1 medium: 422 mg
- Pork tenderloin, 3 ounces, cooked: 382 mg
- Lentils, half cup, cooked: 366 mg
- Milk, 1% low fat, 8 ounces: 366 mg
- Salmon, farmed Atlantic, 3 ounces, cooked: 326 mg
- Pistachios, shelled, 1 ounce, dry roasted: 295 mg
- Raisins, quarter cup: 250 mg
- Chicken breast, 3 ounces, cooked: 218 mg
- Tuna, light, canned, drained, 3 ounces: 201 mg
Source: U.S. Department of Agriculture (USDA) .. via an email from my mom. Thanks, mom!
I also need to make sure that I drink enough water — yet also not too much.
The local Planned Parenthood and Quest Diagnostics chapters have done a wonderfully thorough job of so many things, including testing my blood chemistry to make reasonably sure I’m a good candidate for whatever I’m about to experience. I feel like I’m in good hands, especially since they plan to keep monitoring me.
As to what this chemical is and does, I’m quoting snippets from Wikipedia: “[it] is a synthetic, steroidal … antiandrogen that also has some weak progestogen properties, as well as some indirect estrogen … effects. It … may … be employed for the purpose of reducing elevated or unwanted androgen activity in the body … Higher doses are not recommended for males due to the high risk of feminization … Spironolactone is frequently used as a component of hormone replacement therapy in trans women, usually in addition to an estrogen … the clinical response consists of, among other effects, decreased male pattern body hair, the induction of breast development, feminization in general, and lack of spontaneous erections. Because spironolactone reduces the body’s production of testosterone and blocks the androgen receptors, it can cause effects associated with low testosterone levels and hypogonadism in males.”
This is a major step in the direction I want. The dosage I’m on is humble, just 100mg a day. That’s at the low end of the scale for this sort of agenda. But, I’m fine with starting out like that. Baby steps. 🙂
As to one expected benefit: I’ve diligently been doing butt exercises and they’ve helped only up to a point. More muscle isn’t going to give me a more feminine-shaped butt. However, in concert with this hormone, more exercise and eating right means: I CAN expect to have a more feminine-shaped butt, with matching hips. I am SO looking forward to that.